Talking about my now former husband aunty. The man is hard hearted and malicious as hell. Even though I try to hide it from the public, People kept on telling me that perhaps I wasn’t submissive enough, but I learnt that he gets this insane almost manic pleasure whenever he sees me down trodden, weak, ‘submissive’ and vulnerable making his abuse on me to be worse off than before. My emancipation came when I after many failed interviews, got a good job and started working and earning a good salary.
What this new job did to me actually prolonged my life on earth. I found my voice again, stopped being the stupid submissive wife who swallows everything and every hurt for the sake of peace. Now, I fought back to regain my dignity and pride and he wasn’t too happy about it.
As usual, my husband asked me to leave the house like he usually does and this time he got the shock of his life when I didn’t come crawling and begging and crying my eyes out. He waited and waited, didn’t see me call or come knocking, he came to apologize which was a surprise cos I never taught that Mr ‘sole breadwinner’ VIP, high and Almighty could ever bring himself to ever do that. Well, needless to say, I forgave him and went back to the marriage with my three kids hoping for a better life until he did it again.
This time, he told me to leave while 4 months pregnant and seized the two older kids in the process while out there bragging to his friends that I will come back crawling to him. That I will sure come and beg, and looking back, now I feel like he seized the kids so even if I never wanted to beg him, I will do because of my kids.
Well, after crying my heart out, I stayed put, never went back to that marriage. Managed my life well and gave birth to my lovely daughter (How did I manage my life well without my abusive husband? How was I able to plan my delivery and shop for all my baby items without him? The answer is.. I got a job) .
I went ahead to see a good lawyer and right now we are deciding custody of the kids. He is shocked once again that I can stand on my feet and stand beside him talking about custody of the kids but I’ve told myself that if I want dignity, respect, and my pride as a woman then I will have to fight for it. I would be lying if I say I don’t miss my kids, I do miss them so much sometimes I cry, hence the reason I met a divorce lawyer but the truth is that I am most happy now that I am free from his abusive reign and sadistic manipulations of me.
I feel free from my soul right to my body and spirit and unless something otherwise happens, I have decided to live my life away from that hardened man. If I didn’t start earning my own money, he will continue to threaten me with divorce at every provocation and will always win because I’d have kept begging, running and crawling to him. What a way to live by crying and begging just to be married?